GIVING BACK TO GOD

I am giving God control and know that he will always lead and protect myself and my children. I am sure of this His Will is done always. I think that my dreams are so wild and crazy sometimes but, dreams are necessary for stability. They almost always require work and that is how God knows we are dedicated to reaching such goals. I have always had trouble believing in myself but God has always believed in me. It is time to give back and receive his blessings for my efforts. I believe God is proud of my accomplishments thus far. Not always proud of the way I got here but still proud. I am accomplishing things I could have reached years ago but, I didn't believe I deserved to be alive much less have a purpose. I believe that in working on my recovery, reaching out to others to show them they can recover too. He is with me always and until the day I die I will try to serve him by helping others.

One way I serve him is to help others. My bi-polar darkness has a story of recovery and hope for the future. I believe God is with me each time I present myself to others. I believe that God speaks through me and I pray each time that I may make a difference in peoples lives,that they believe in themselves (maybe) for the first time and then, strive for recovery. I pray that I don't say anything that will be destructive in that process.

Today I give my son to the US Army, I gave my son back to God to protect long ago. He has covered him in his bosom and keeps protecting him for he is God's child. I will remember this and be proud of my son, worried yeah, but sure of one thing that God will take him in his time. I can't control that. Zach wants to be a soldier and has wanted to since I can remember. I know he will give it all hes got and I am proud to give my son to his dreams. God I am giving him back to you to protect and watch over each time he breaths a breath of air.

This should have put me in the hospital right? No! Recovery is a dream I have reached for through the strength of God. I am giving back to God by helping others strive for that goal they dream of. I pray that I can make a difference in Gods will.
God bless you all!

Nessa