I matter

Things seem to happen when you speak up for yourself. This is something I never understood until now. I have always been passive and misunderstood by others who think they could run over me. I was always following someone else's way instead of mine to keep the peace.

I have now learned that I need to speak my mind in order to be happy and to help others see me for who I am.

Usually, life is weird, things are easier when you just let things flow as they are but, if you speak up, let yourself be heard you feel you have made a stand for yourself and respect comes to you for yourself.

I am not one of those you would see starting wars or trying to hurt others with words or physically. I have always felt that to be wrong and useless. I now, look at things different, no I don't think I should fight with everyone all the time or push my weight around. No, I don't want to be a hard nosed person who has to have their way or no way. But, I will try to speak my mind on more occasions because it is important to my mental health and physical being for me to get that point across.

I have changed with growth and recovery. Liking myself has made me see that I am important enough to matter. For almost a half a century I felt useless and unimportant, now, I know I am someone and I matter to me if not to anyone else.

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