The minute I wake up I have to thank God that I am alive and well. I sometimes forget to do it that very moment that is true but, I always try to do it before the morning is gone away.
I have lived alot of bad memories and shown signs of whithering away. I have wanted to die many times. Why, you say? Well,
I could go into a long drawn out story about how life has treated me unfair! I could just tell you I have been abused and mistreated all my life through on source or another. I could give excuse after excuse for my reasons but, they simply don't seem important anymore. I have moved on from my past and live in the present. I used to dwell on the suicidal thoughts and the depression that made me who I WAS. Now, it just doesn't seem important enough to dwell on.
I live for today and hope for tomorrow, I look for the future in my present hopes and dreams.
I just allow myself to glance over the past from time to time to share with others the mistakes and the acceptance of my past which got me to where I am now. This shows me every time I speak that I have made it just one more day and I am proud of that! Live in the present is my best advice to anyone who is allowing themselves to have a pity party dwelling on past experiences. I know from experience that all it gets you is another day full of sorrow and pain. Think about now and the things that you have. You husband, children, grand kids? whatever that it is that keeps you alive. Today, is just the start of a brand new future. I can tell you it is much more exciting than living in the past.
I pray for each one that reads this that you see a future full of hopes and dreams. I know that God has a plan for you and me. We just have to hold on to what we have, enjoy the things we have, and to thank God for these things everyday. This will lead us to that place where we finally see what God has in store for us here on this earth.
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