i still get depressed very often. I spend alot of time bring myself out of a seriously despondent mood. I think the reason for that is I get to a point where I am going at full speed and then I have a set back that attacks my every being.
There are times I can pull myself out really fast and other times that makes it almost impossible for me to breathe for weeks at a time. The thing that seems to help me the most is my family. If they can reach me I usually do well. If they don't see me falling it can be even harder coming through the pain.
It is very painful to look back and see that my progress has fallen apart. This makes it even harder to come alive again.
I have been rather worn out in the past few weeks. Not because of being over worked but because of stress over not being heard.
I have been totally distraught about the idea that some or most have given up on the program. At out NAMI meeting last week no one showed up eccept the president and Eric and myself. So we went ahead and canceled the whole thing.
Has everyone given up because the government has scewed us over?
We have to stand stronger than before and I feel that even though we have to work a little harder we should continue to stand strong in our fight to win this war.
I plan to fight as long as I can and I pray that you will do the same.
I will be sending out invites and miss you emails today and I pray that we can all touch base for a group by at least next month. I realize it is summer but we still need to support the one that keeps us alive.
Strength, support and hope begin when we all stand together. So lets make it know that we are strong and will support our NAMI groups no matter what!
That's my gripe for the day. I will try to be more encouraging the next time I write.
Nessa